mama of 2 update

One of my bffs is expecting her second daughter in a few months so I’ve been keeping her up to date with all the craziness that’s been going on in my world since we added Lily to our family. I do my best not to scare her with ALL the details, but I believe it’s only fair to share enough to at least prepare her.

A few weeks ago she sent me text asking, “What’s been the hardest part?” I dropped what I was doing and had to really think about it. I waited a few days to respond because so many things came to mind. I couldn’t define one thing in particular, it all kinda felt difficult!

But I was finally able to break it down into two parts:

1) Having two little humans that are so needy but in entirely different ways. Bryn needs me as mama/play companion while Lily relies on me in a more physical way (i.e. carrying, feeding, bathing, etc.) It’s been tricky trying to keep both entertained and happy, getting naps in, keeping both safe when they run/crawl off in opposite directions. We have chaotic days when everyone is overtired and cranky, but we also have lots of awesome days sprinkled in when things just seem to fall into place and I feel like supermom.

2) The fact that I have like ZERO time to myself, unless I sacrifice sleep. For example, I originally wrote this post in November as a 6 month update, had to modify as Lily is now 9 months old, and am now just getting around to posting… Even though Ryan and I make a great team, it feels like we’re both spread pretty thin, not to mention distant until both kiddos are down for the night. The lack of help/family nearby has been tough on us, but as the girls get older and more independent, life should get a bit more manageable. I don’t want to wish away the baby days, but I am looking forward to Lily being able to communicate with us, walk on her own, and eat without me watching her like a hawk. Literally every parent I’ve talked to lately reaffirms that we’re in the hardest of the hard part so I’m holding out for some kind of relief in the near future!

Basically, I have no idea what I’m doing and these last 9ish months have been rough, not gonna sugarcoat it, but I also believe everyone processes things differently so others may not have as harsh of an experience as I have. I want to tell my friend how I deal AFTER I’ve actually lived through it. Bryn is a whole year older than her first daughter, so I’ve had time to reflect on the things she’s asked me about, but I feel like I’m still in the thick of it with Lily. It’s too soon, ya know?! In other words, by the time her baby girl #2 arrives, I’ll feel better about shelling out advice.

I hope this wasn’t too graphic for anyone. Please don’t read it as discouraging! Mamas of soon-to-be two, you’re going to be fine. Tired AF, but fine. You’ll love your littles like an insane person and all the stress melts away the second you see them interacting. I promise. And now I’m crying. You’ll survive, don’t be scared. xx

february 28 playlist

Hey mamas <3 I can’t even tell you what it’s taken to get me back on this little space today. Bryn is at preschool, Lily is napping, and I’m ignoring my messy house just to check in. It’s been weighing on my heart, to stay inspired and connected, but with two little ones under my wing, most of my time and energy are spent. I honestly don’t know how you do it.

I’ve been super busy yet I don’t exactly feel accomplished. But instead of feeling guilty about my blog and/or creative projects taking a backseat these last few months, I’m doing my best to listen to my body and just lean right in. I’m currently on a break from social media and worrying less about capturing my kids’ every waking moment on camera. Experiencing life for what it is, making unplanned memories, and practicing a more ‘go with the flow’ mentality has totally helped keep meltdowns at bay during this beautifully exhausting phase. My girls are 3.5 years and 9 months now (mama of two update on the way).

The photo above was taken over a year ago. It was the beginning of a 52 week photo challenge and I’m pretty sure I lost track soon after this shot. But to bring you up to speed, we’ve since added a baby girl to our fam, Bryn’s (and Ryan’s) hair has grown about 6 inches, we ditched the dining room rug, replaced those chairs, and updated that green back patio… While I’m dying to share all the newness in my home, I also feel that the past is just important, to reflect and share an image that I love and somehow just fell through the cracks.

Spring seems like a great time to revisit and start fresh. Hoping to make more time for my daydreams. Happy March :)

01  Love of Mine | Bardo Martinez
02  Tints | Anderson .Paak, Kendrick Lamar
03  Satellite | STRFKR
04  Electric Blue | Arcade Fire
05  This Must Be the Place | Sure Sure
06  Black Smoke Rising | Greta Van Fleet
07  God Killed the Queen | Louis XIV
08  Glittering Clouds | Cut Copy
09  Maria También | Khruangbin
10  Evan Finds the Third Room | Khruangbin
11  Land and Man | Khruangbin
12  White Gloves | Khruangbin

november 9 playlist

Happy long weekend! Bryn’s bunk beds are scheduled to be delivered tomorrow and we just realized that Ryan has Monday off but Bryn will still have school, so we’re planning to get her big girl room all set up before we pick her up that day. I’m pretty sure that I’m more excited than she is… I’ve just been waiting for this day and can’t wait to decorate her new space.

Below is another random playlist for you, enjoy!

01  I Like It | Cardi B
02  In My Feelings | Drake
03  Four Out of Five | Arctic Monkeys
04  Sweet Emotion | The Kooks
05  Ghost | VHS Collection
06  Hey | Pixies
07  Whatever You Want | Sports
08  Los Ageless | St. Vincent, DJDS
09 Younger | The Hails
10  Carry The Zero | Built To Spill
11  Obvs | Jamie xx
12  Playing With Fire | Nick Leng

november personal style

It may be mid-November, but we’re just starting to feel the beginning of Fall in San Diego. I’ve been layering pieces to give myself options as temps change throughout the day, and most outfits start with this black cami as a base. These easy jammy-like flare-leg pants are perfect for both lounging around the house or running out with the babes. If I can get away with feeling this comfy in public, I’m doin’ it.

I wore this pop of color to a hotel photo shoot and happily surprised by how much a bright tee can affect my mood. I guess I should venture out of the neutral zone more often.

Oh and a lightweight denim jumper that I never thought I’d wear in a million years turns out to be one of the most comfortable things I own. I just bought a mini one for Baby Lily because I’m that mom now ;) She insisted on a making a cameo in this post.

An update on life with two bebes is in the works, so check back soon!

holiday mini sessions 2018

While at-home sessions are extremely intimate and memorable, it’s impossible to ignore the fact that we live in one of the most amazingly beautiful cities in the country. Sometimes we just have to take advantage of this 72* and sunny coastal dream, right? And as a mama myself, I 100% understand that sometimes your littles just need to run wild and free. So if breezy sunsets are truly your thing, let’s meet by the sea for some beach blanket cuddles this holiday season. 

From now until December 9, 2018, I’m booking a limited number of nature themed mini sessions. Here are the deets:

babes in the wild mini sessions $150

+ 30 minute session
+ 15 digital images with the option to purchase more
+ location of your choice: Windansea Beach in La Jolla, Cactus Garden in Balboa Park, Mission Trails in La Mesa, and of course, your home or backyard is always an option <3

Please don’t hesitate to contact me with any questions as spaces tend to fill up quick this time of year – can’t wait to hear from you!